Shattered Fairytale

I have been married to the same man for 30 years. I recently had my eyes opened to the person he truly was. I got together with him when I was 15 years old and he was 20. I had our first child when I was 16, our second when I was 20, and our third when I was 21. Sadly our second baby passed away at 2 days old because he was premature. That was the hardest thing I had ever had to deal with. has always been controlling I just didn't realize how much so until I found out he had a 24 year old girlfriend and he was 45. I then found out he had cheated throughout our marriage. He hit me for the first time after we had been together for 24 years. The picture above is some of the results of him getting angry with me for not listening to what he had to say. He now stalks me, he finds out who I am friends with or talking to and begins harassing or threatening them to scare them away from me. I am currently bouncing from house to house for a place to stay so I'm not on the street. I could really use a helping hand to get myself together. I am trying to learn how to be without someone else pulling the strings. I am doing what I can to stay away from my ex and to find my own way. I could use funds to get new clothing, a place to stay, and a laptop to be able to find employment to start the second and hopefully happy part of my life. Anyone that can help would be a tremendous blessing for me. I had always believed in fairytales but that was shattered. I want to believe again.