Raising for an Attorney to get time with my kids.

Im indesperate in need of an attorney to represent me in court so that I can have more time with my babies. My kids mean everything to me and they were taken away from me from their spiteful mother. there has been clear signs of alienation and and even my son said he hates me because of the mean things i say to mommy because me and her have gotten into it from time to time however that should stay between us as parents and our kids should never be invioved. I asked him how did he know about that and he told me that mommy showed him all of our messages which isnt right bringing our kids into the situation and she did it to change his views on me his father. there are other times where both of my kids told me they were afraid of me just snatching them during my visits, agian something that kids just dont come up with on their own. They are my everything I was the first to hold both of my children i changed their first diaper and I was always there with them for 8 years because I was a stay at home father so going from being with them for 8 years to going to 8 months without no contact it is truly killing me and they need to be saved from the manipulation.